Winter of my Discontent

It’s not time for despair, but for repair. – Gary Montecalvo

 I am at that point where you look carefully at what you are doing and where you are headed and wonder whether you know, in heavens name, where your life is going. (It isn’t that I am experiencing this for the first time – just that every time feels new in its own right.) I had a long talk some hours ago with my better half (that’s an overused humble way of simply saying wife) and we questioned every way I feel can move me to the next level of goal achievement. Good part of being married is that you can no longer make solo decisions. At the end of our talk I cannot categorically say we made progress.

Deep within my heart lies a discontent – a feeling that there is much more to lay hands on, much more to do and experience. Logically, it would suffice to say, “Young man you have a long life to live so please be still,” but if you have been young you would attest to the feeling of desperation that frequently keeps it company.

While drifting along in thoughts my mind went to Adam with his wife, Eve, in the garden. No history books. No folk tales. No songs. Just the two of them and all of creation. How did they overcome their winters of discontent? What did they result to when it was looking obvious that their dreams (and the whole of mankind) would die with them? Did they despair? Did they fall into the gloomy pit of depression as many of us would?

Just the way I cannot answer my own questions, I also have no certain answers to these questions. Instead, I look to another man who was left all alone at his time of despair. At one time, David’s camp was raided and all the women, children, and their possessions were taken. His men were in despair and debated if the best action was to kill their leader and friend, David. David was found himself in a winter of discontent. He would have stayed confused and depressed but instead we read that, “David encouraged and strengthened himself in the Lord.” May that be where Adam received strength? Most probably.
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At your times of trouble I implore you to look to the Lord. It is there that you receive encouragement that strengthens.